"All I Want"
Extracts from Hakase Mizuki's The Demon Ororon, Volume One:
This was my dream. To share my life with someone who would always be there.
My dream... my life.
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He said,
"I made a promise to you. I will never leave. Don't cry my dear. Until your dying day, I'll be at your side. Until your body lies dissolving in a rotting heap and melts back into the soil whence it came. Dry your tears. I'm here now."
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You're sweet, Ororon.
"No, I'm not. I'm cold"
You're cold... but sweet. I don't know what i'd do without you. Now that you're here. I'm happier then i've ever been.
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This world is so big. When i'm alone. I feel lost. Lost in a forest of solitude.
"I dont want you to feel lost. I'll stay here with you until you fall asleep."
What if i dont fall asleep until morning?
"Then i'll stay with you until morning"
What if i never go to sleep?
"Then i'll stay with you forever."
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I watched the blood run down the side of my wrist.
What a waste. I'm poison. Nothing but posion running through my veins. I'm not human. I'm no angel. I'm definitely not a demon. I'm casted aside in this world of binaries. I'm lost and unprotected. Hunted and hated.
Save me. Dont leave me.
It was apparent to me, last night, that no matter how i survive, things will never get better. I can only drain myself of my pain.
There are so many forces against me.
I feel faint.
There's was so much blood. Thick and black. There's nothing good inside me. Only pain. Only misfortune. A parody of the normality. I can't get away.
If only he could stop hurting me.
I still love him - no matter what. I remember his promise.
That is my dream... that is my life...
