"Living by the Blade"

It's day three.

That makes three cuts in total. I can't stop myself. Everyday I inch closer and close to the throbbing pulse. It trembles under my skin, tempting me.

Today I allowed the blood to swell into a droplet and watched in fasination as it rolled off my arm, under its own weight. Do not judge me. You do not understand because you have not been here. I am not special in my condition, but not all of you know what i'm going through, so do not judge me.

Release me now.
  ¶ 5/08/2004 12:03:00 PM