"Struggle"

My skin is hurting for no reason. The muscles seem to be aching for the blade. I dont want to be like this. I feel taunted and teased.

I touch the blade for comfort, but i do not unwrap it from its dressing of clean tissue paper. I know if i pick it up again, i wont be able to stop myself. I will surely cut myself again.

I have my creams and bandages beside me just incase. I do not intend to use them. Not today.
  ¶ 5/09/2004 04:20:00 PM