"Cover My Mouth"

I can't talk anymore. Things are the way they are because they are. I tried. I really tried. Things are okay, as long as i dont say anything, as long as i dont do anything. I just want to be next to him. I have have no more words to say.

Choke the life out of me - i'd love you more.

I just want to have him in front of me always. My goal, my agent. I dont want to be this way anymore. i dont want to lie in bed, afraid about what today might bring. I dont want to feel like i'm fall apart. Love isn't suppose to make anyone feel this way.

I'm breakable.

I'll huddle in my corner and wait for the storm to subside. I can't take this. I can't take anymore of this. I feel sick, inside out.

What more can i do or say?

If he loved me...

There's nothing more to talk about. We are going around in circles.
I'm afriad. I'm alone. There's no one i'd rather be with then you. There's no meaing behind my words. I'm abandoned and betrayed. Nothing can heal me. I want out.

These words aren't for you alone, My Tourniquet.

Cosmic Cosmos. Take whatever you need and drain me dry. There isn't much left. Only skin and bones. A sack.

I'm empty inside.

I dont want to talk about this anymore.

I'm hurting inside.
  ¶ 6/11/2004 12:05:00 PM