"I Dont Care"

Maintain. Maintanence. I'm staying. I'm here. Perseverance. I dont want to talk about it. I just want to stay here, in love with you.

He silences me. He can't bear to hear my words. My skin burns up against his touch. I think i'm gone. I think i'm done for.

Push me away. Stuff my throat with pills and chemicals. I'm happier this way. I bleed alcohol and bile. I'm know that I'd be too drugged up to feel any pain, as you position me to be dominated by you and have your way. Take it all way. It's not like i have much left to give. All I have are lies anyway. I'm worthless to you. A doll on your shelf.

You say that i'm loved (by you), then why would you gut me up inside out? Pull out my speen and be done with this murder.

I can be an empty shell. I can be a fool. I can close my eyes as you violate my sanctity, tear up my silver wings and peel away my goldren flesh. Just dont go. Just stay until i have had my last breath.

i belong to you. I belong to this pain. I'm home here. You are where i shall call my own.

Though you're hurting me....you're still all that keeps me here.
  ¶ 6/12/2004 05:03:00 PM