"I'm Sorry I Can't Be Perfect"
i feel neglected.
we use to talk all the time, even when you were out with your friends.
i guess this is how you should've wanted it before you started imposing all your restrictions on us
i'll try to adjust again i guess.
i just miss you alot thats all - it's not like we've had time to ourselves recently
i guess i was expecting some form of intimacy from you, not some cold shoulder. A gentle assurance was all i wanted.
it's sad how you're the only person i want to be with, but you'll only believe the opposite of that, because you're too afraid to believe me.
i liked it best when you were stressed and lonely, and all you wanted to do was talk to me and i'd always make myself available to you
i liked it best when i had you in my arms
i liked it best when i could run to you and cry when something went wrong
when and then.
i feel like things are changing, because i no longer feel the same. I still love you, neither less nor more - it has always been steadfast and strong, however, every moment you shut me out of your light, it receeds into me.
i no longer feel my body. the butterflies i had have turned to ashes, because of your touch.
this is how it is suppose to be. i knew it. i dreamt of it. now i suffer it.
perhaps you did the right thing when you left me so long ago.
i will never be sorry that i kissed you.
i will never be sorry that i love you.
however, i do feel sorrow. it was never in my nature to regret.
Love makes us all human eventually.
Extracts from Peter S. Beagle's The Last Unicorn:
Schmendrick: And you, you have no regrets, as I do?
Unicorn: I can never regret. I can feel sorrow, but it's not the same thing.
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Lady Amalthea: He is mad! Mad!
Schmendrick: Shhh, don't, don't, don't. It's all right. We'll find them. Come on, come to me. Oh, please, please don't cry. If you've become human enough to cry then no magic in the world can change you back. Just come with me. Shh, don't cry. I promise you we'll find them.
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Unicorn: You are a true wizard now, as you always wished. Does it make you happy?
Schmendrick: Well, men don't always know when they're happy, but I-I think so. And you?
Unicorn: I am a little afraid to go home. I have been mortal, and some part of me is mortal yet. I am no longer like the others; for no unicorn was ever born who could regret. But now I do. I regret.
Schmendrick: I am sorry, I have done you evil and I cannot undo it.
Unicorn: No. Unicorns are in the world again. No sorrow will live in me as long as that joy - save one, and I thank you for that part too. Farewell, good magician. I will try to go home.
