"I Should be Fine Without You"

It's another day and eventhough there are wars to fight, I tell myself to feel stronger for myself. No one owes me anything.

I wanted to tell you that as long as you're there for me at the end of the day, I could face anything. I now realise how misguided that emotion was. The truth is that you're unable to be there for me, that I'm alone in my own being and i have my battles to deal with.

I'm alone. Deal with it.

If i stay silent, you are afraid.
If i speak, you are afraid.

There is no where i can turn. To you. For you.

Stiffling my tears as i choke towards death, i cannot call out for you because you'd never take it. You dont need me. You dont need this. I can't provide for you. I can't want you. It'll hurt you. You're hurting me.

I dont want to wait.

Don't worry about me. The damange has been done.

  ¶ 9/27/2004 06:44:00 PM