"When I was You and Me"

I want to tell you that i love you. Over and Over again. I freeze all the time. I can't make myself do it. You're so very far away. In a space where i'd love to be. In your bed, where everything is all clean and fresh. Your scent hangs in the air. All i have are your empty eyes, laughing at a joke i've long forgotten. Do you still think of me at all? Am i still remembered? I want you to see me. i want you to love me. This is all just a stupid dream. We'll betray so many people if it happened. I love you. I can't stop. I feel so small and alone here. I wish you'd come back and sweept me off your feet. I still remember your touch. I makes me happy. I wish we had a moment alone. I wish i could sit beside you on that balcony again, under the stars. Quiet and awkward. I was so happy there. Your tall wide frame next to me. You make feel insecure. I love you.

Please think of me. It'll make me smile.  ¶ 8/02/2005 10:45:00 PM