"Nothing At All"

It doesn't cost much to sell youself and put a price on your ass. I dont even know enough about myself to even begin considering how much i'm actually worth.

i'm always looking for reassurance. some sorta recognition that i'm good enough to exist in this world. Nothing i do seems good enough though.

I figure that there's something wrong with my brain. changing my outlook on life doesn't do much for me. i always feel like i'm living a shallow lie, because i dont believe in all this fluffy white goodness that the world has to offer. I'm in so much pain all the time i've forgotten what life is like without it. i'm not afraid of losing it though. i keep telling myself that it'll all go away some day. maybe that's just another lie to keep myself going.

if i'm sure of anything, i think everyone around me should just back off. as long as i'm not stabbing my wrists with plastic forks and the likes, i'm fine. Please dont bother telling me how great life is, because i know, i just can't share the same magnitutes of your sentiments. I'm not that easily satisfied.

i'm just a bundles of nerves.  ¶ 9/20/2005 03:08:00 PM