"Sleepless Big"

You said that i am an inappropriate, irrational machine. Numbing myself down, i grow closer to your heartless expectations.

You do not understand my fears. You've done all you can in your ignorance to calm me down. I scream like a madman. I hunger for reprieve. My lungs burn for air as i scream.

Is there nothing you can do to love me more? Is there not a magickal word you could utter that would take away my pain? Shall i sew up my heart to brighten your day? These questions i put before you. This is bad... i should be happy.  ¶ 11/14/2005 01:06:00 AM